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Friday, November 2nd, 2007

Subject:Animal Abuse in Ukraine
Posted by:help_animal.
Time:7:01 pm.
www.MatesMaster.com friends and romance network, the site which is constantly involved in Animal Welfare programs, joins forces with Kiev City Society for the Protection of Animals in protest to the inhumane treatment of animals, abuse and cruelty in Ukraine.

About 156,000 stray cats and dogs are annually hurt, abused and killed in Ukrainian citiesand towns. When caught by the dog catchers, some stray animals are used forpainful experiments.
Stray dogs are often bludgeoned or put to death by electricity or caught using an inhumane poison and sometimes die slow, painful deaths. Instead of putting an animal to sleep with the use of euthanasia (i.e. the act of killing an animal painlessly), the animal service uses dithylinum (suxamethonium chloride), a poison which paralyzes the animal and causes it to die of suffocation in a few hours of agony. There is ample evidence that the poor creatures are still conscious and feel all the pain before they die. It is often the case that animals are beaten with legs and metal sticks, whereupon they are buried or burned alive.

Lots of people witnessed animals being tortured and murdered - little kittens tied up in plastic bags and thrown in the river, people intentionally run stray pets over with their cars, newly born puppies dumped on vacant land without their mother and left them to die.
Stories are endless and make hearts of every Human Being bleed.

Authorities of small Ukrainian communities for ever used and are still using different kind of poison - rat poison and recently they "discovered" a new method of killing stray animals - Isoniazidum (Tubazidum) anti-tuberculosis drug causing cheap, but very slow and painful death

more information is available here: www.MatesMaster.com/petrescue.html

To sign a petition to Ukrainian government, please, go to
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/stop-slaughtering-stray-animals-in-ukraine
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Monday, July 23rd, 2007

Posted by:dxmgirl.
Time:10:08 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Wow, it's been a couple of years since I did anything to this community. I actually wonder if anyone still checks it out from time to time. If you do, we'll try to get some discussion going, as soon as I can think of anything interesting. :-)
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Thursday, January 4th, 2007

Subject:i've done it!
Posted by:lovedrugsmusic1.
Time:8:56 pm.
Mood: crushed.
yeah, ive done robitussin before...alot. i used to down 3, 4 bottles one after the other. i used to do it b4 school too. i used to go buy the shit and then drink it on the way to school. but, umm, if u've never done it b4, i think it may be a good idea to do it at home 1st, and only do like, 1 bottle at first. then u can move up, and then when u know what it'll do, sure b4 school. but if ur even gonna do that, y not just take coricidens? they got the DXM in it just like the robitussin, and they're alot stronger, and give u a way better trip. but ne wayz, i'm new, so e-mail me or sumthin, i swear i can be cool...sumtimes...
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Saturday, January 21st, 2006

Posted by:teenagewildlife.
Time:4:31 pm.

i'm really sorry for this lousy attempt at a first post, but i'm trying to get the word out for a new bloodhound gang (specifically, jimmy pop) community ...for anyone is interested in joining ...

mods: if this is not allowed, i apologize; jimmitypop

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Monday, October 24th, 2005

Posted by:magicmintcrayon.
Time:7:15 pm.
who on here has done robitussin? if so...what was your experience like, and would it be a good idea to do it before school?
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Saturday, June 11th, 2005

Posted by:discipline.
Time:5:38 am.
my mind.
well, who cares about my mind?
let's talk about my heart.
it loves the oxygen my lungs absorb
but how bout this weed?
it causes my lungs to fray and turn gray
and the jim beam and coke that i drink
turn my liver to jell-o
just the way my heart goes numb
when i see vanessa
and my mind, well who cares about it?
oh, psychiatrists sometimes do and don't forget neurologists
examing my deluded brain would drive a man insane, insane
and i don't think i'll ever be able to fly
or go out to picnics on the fourth of july
i won't sail to bermuda with seventeen thousand pigs
i won't go down to ireland and take lessons in jigs
i won't stand in the produce department eating their figs
there won't be any hannukah, or birthdays, new year
there will never be an anniversary with someone i hold dear
the end is near, the end is near, the end is near, the end is near
i see it's clear the end is near and so i'd rather end it here
than being interrupted while drinking beer
you'll see and hear the things you fear
when you hold dear a man who's queer.
heh
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Sunday, November 14th, 2004

Posted by:discipline.
Time:11:25 pm.
her bones now bleach in a springtime desert.
no one can find her, except me.
i drew up a map during a long shift at the sex shoppe, waiting for someone, anyone, to come in and buy a dildo.
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Wednesday, December 18th, 2002

Posted by:dxmgirl.
Time:12:40 am.
Mood: cranky.
Hey... Owner of the community speaking... I realize I'm doing a shitty job managing this community, but I seem to have lost the password for it and I can't get it back either, cause the e-mail account of the community have been shut down. So... Sorry about that. :-(
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Thursday, October 3rd, 2002

Subject:..one too many.
Posted by:exposedink.
Time:7:55 pm.
shit. i didn't mean to do that.
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Subject:Beau's Bedroom.
Posted by:exposedink.
Time:7:41 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
INT. BEAU'S BEDROOM

Beau is sitting in his room, watching the tele.

As Beau is flicking thru channels, Chase Walks in.

Chase happens to notice that Beau's left sleeve is rolled up.
Along with a bunch of sore lookin' like things on his arm.


CHASE: hey Beau. what's up.
BEAU: nothin'.
CHASE: what are you doin'?
BEAU: watchin' some stupid ass show.
CHASE: ahh.. so what have you been up to?
BEAU: not much. just kinda hangin' out. chillin' at home.
CHASE: you feelin' ok? you look a little pale.
BEAU: yeah.. i'm ok. a little headache. but that's about it.
CHASE: hmmmm.. ugh.. what are those?
(pointing to Beau's arm.)
BEAU: nothin'. (he begins to roll down his sleeve.)
CHASE: they're somethin'. they look like little cuts. do they hurt?
BEAU: no. and it's nothin'.
CHASE: lemme see.
BEAU: no.
CHASE: what the fuck? why not?
BEAU: because.
CHASE: beacause why?
BEAU: because i fuckin' said so. geez.
CHASE: what the fuck ever. well they look nasty. and why are they on your arm like that?
BEAU: it's nothin'. don't worry about it.
CHASE: why do you always gotta be a dick like that? everytime i try to talk to you.. you get all weird or whatever.
BEAU: whatever Chase. just leave it alone. shit.
CHASE: fuck you.
BEAU: huh?
CHASE: fuck you. you're an asshole. i don't know why you gotta be a dick about things all the time. fuckin' ugh. always playin' mind games.
BEAU: what? why do i gotta be an asshole? what? because you can't mind your own. and mind games? yeah..
CHASE: whatever.
BEAU: is that all you came over here for? ..to fuckin' argue with me over some dumbass shit. who even called you anyway?
CHASE: YOU FUCKIN' ASSHOLE. FUCK OFF!
BEAU: what?! shit. just leave if you're gonna be a bitch about stuff.
didn't noone ask you to come over. i got enough stuff goin' on as it is. and i don't need to hear your shit right now.
CHASE: you know what? you're right. fuck you. i don't need this. you always being secretive and shit. fuck you.
BEAU: ok then. that's fine. you know where the door is. ain't noone stoppin' you. i'm sorry.. but i just don't need this right now.

As Chase heads for the door she looks down and notices a syringe on the floor.

CHASE: what the fuck Beau? what is this?
BEAU: where did you find that?
CHASE: right here. on the floor.
BEAU: give it to me.
CHASE: no. what is it doin' on your floor?
CHASE: Beau.. no. tell me it isn't for what i think it's for.
BEAU: just give it to me and leave. serious.
CHASE: god Beau. that's why you've been actin' so weird lately. is that what all those marks on your arm is from.
how long have you been doin' this? where are you gettin' it from? and why the fuck are you doin' it?
BEAU: you don't know what you're talking about. just go.
CHASE: is it bad? does anyone else know about this?
BEAU: i don't have anything else to say to you. now can you just go. please.
CHASE: you need help. i can help you. let me help you.
BEAU: how in the fuck do you know what i need? all you know is what you see. nothin' more. nothin' less. i don't need your help. i'm aware of what's goin' on. now please. go.
CHASE: no. i'm not leaving. talk to me.
BEAU: no. there isn't anything to talk about. what you wanna hear, i'm not gonna say. fuck it. if you won't leave, then i will.
i don't have time for this. you say that you wanna help me, but then you press me. if you really wanted to help me, then you'd leave.
CHASE: why won't you talk to me?! this is serious. you could die.
BEAU: so fuckin' what? it's what i choose. and maybe.. maybe i don't want any help. or anyone involved in what's goin' on with me.
fuck! why can't you just let me be. now please. leave.



(to be continued..)
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Subject:Beau's Bedroom.
Posted by:exposedink.
Time:7:39 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
INT. BEAU'S BEDROOM

Beau is sitting in his room, watching the tele.

As Beau is flicking thru channels, Chase Walks in.

Chase happens to notice that Beau's left sleeve is rolled up.
Along with a bunch of sore lookin' like things on his arm.


CHASE: hey Beau. what's up.
BEAU: nothin'.
CHASE: what are you doin'?
BEAU: watchin' some stupid ass show.
CHASE: ahh.. so what have you been up to?
BEAU: not much. just kinda hangin' out. chillin' at home.
CHASE: you feelin' ok? you look a little pale.
BEAU: yeah.. i'm ok. a little headache. but that's about it.
CHASE: hmmmm.. ugh.. what are those?
(pointing to Beau's arm.)
BEAU: nothin'. (he begins to roll down his sleeve.)
CHASE: they're somethin'. they look like little cuts. do they hurt?
BEAU: no. and it's nothin'.
CHASE: lemme see.
BEAU: no.
CHASE: what the fuck? why not?
BEAU: because.
CHASE: beacause why?
BEAU: because i fuckin' said so. geez.
CHASE: what the fuck ever. well they look nasty. and why are they on your arm like that?
BEAU: it's nothin'. don't worry about it.
CHASE: why do you always gotta be a dick like that? everytime i try to talk to you.. you get all weird or whatever.
BEAU: whatever chase. just leave it alone. shit.
CHASE: fuck you.
BEAU: huh?
CHASE: fuck you. you're an asshole. i don't know why you gotta be a dick about things all the time. fuckin' ugh. always playin' mind games.
BEAU: what? why do i gotta be an asshole? what? because you can't mind your own. and mind games? yeah..
CHASE: whatever.
BEAU: is that all you came over here for? ..to fuckin' argue with me over some dumbass shit. who even called you anyway?
CHASE: YOU FUCKIN' ASSHOLE. FUCK OFF!
BEAU: what?! shit. just leave if you're gonna be a bitch about stuff.
didn't noone ask you to come over. i got enough stuff goin' on as it is. and i don't need to hear your shit right now.
CHASE: you know what? you're right. fuck you. i don't need this. you always being secretive and shit. fuck you.
BEAU: ok then. that's fine. you know where the door is. ain't noone stoppin' you. i'm sorry.. but i just don't need this right now.

As Chase heads for the door she looks down and notices a syringe on the floor.

CHASE: what the fuck Beau? what is this?
BEAU: where did you find that?
CHASE: right here. on the floor.
BEAU: give it to me.
CHASE: no. what is it doin' on your floor?
CHASE: Beau.. no. tell me it isn't for what i think it's for.
BEAU: just give it to me and leave. serious.
CHASE: god Beau. that's why you've been actin' so weird lately. is that what all those marks on your arm is from.
how long have you been doin' this? where are you gettin' it from? and why the fuck are you doin' it?
BEAU: you don't know what you're talking about. just go.
CHASE: is it bad? does anyone else know about this?
BEAU: i don't have anything else to say to you. now can you just go. please.
CHASE: you need help. i can help you. let me help you.
BEAU: how in the fuck do you know what i need? all you know is what you see. nothin' more. nothin' less. i don't need your help. i'm aware of what's goin' on. now please. go.
CHASE: no. i'm not leaving. talk to me.
BEAU: no. there isn't anything to talk about. what you wanna hear, i'm not gonna say. fuck it. if you won't leave, then i will.
i don't have time for this. you say that you wanna help me, but then you press me. if you really wanted to help me, then you'd leave.
CHASE: why won't you talk to me?! this is serious. you could die.
BEAU: so fuckin' what? it's what i choose. and maybe.. maybe i don't want any help. or anyone involved in what's goin' on with me.
fuck! why can't you just let me be. now please. leave.



(to be continued..)
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Subject:Beau's Bedroom.
Posted by:exposedink.
Time:6:37 pm.
Mood: thirsty.
INT. BEAU'S BEDROOM

Beau is sitting in his room, watching the tele.

As Beau is flicking thru channels, Chase Walks in.

Chase happens to notice that Beau's left sleeve is rolled up.
Along with a bunch of sore lookin' like things on his arm.


CHASE: hey beau. what's up.
BEAU: nothin'.
CHASE: what are you doin'?
BEAU: watchin' some stupid ass show.
CHASE: ahh.. so what have you been up to?
BEAU: not much. just kinda hangin' out. chillin' at home.
CHASE: you feelin' ok? you look a little pale.
BEAU: yeah.. i'm ok. a little headache. but that's about it.
CHASE: hmmmm.. ugh.. what are those?
(pointing to Beau's arm.)
BEAU: nothin'. (he begins to roll down his sleeve.)
CHASE: they're somethin'. they look like little cuts. do they hurt?
BEAU: no. and it's nothin'.
CHASE: lemme see.
BEAU: no.
CHASE: what the fuck? why not?
BEAU: because.
CHASE: beacause why?
BEAU: because i fuckin' said so. geez.
CHASE: what the fuck ever. well they look nasty. and why are they on your arm like that?
BEAU: it's nothin'. don't worry about it.
CHASE: why do you always gotta be a dick like that? everytime i try to talk to you.. you get all weird or whatever.
BEAU: whatever chase. just leave it alone. shit.
CHASE: fuck you.
BEAU: huh?
CHASE: fuck you. you're an asshole. i don't know why you gotta be a dick about things all the time. fuckin' ugh. always playin' mind games.
BEAU: what? why do i gotta be an asshole? what? because you can't mind your own. and mind games? yeah..
CHASE: whatever.
BEAU: is that all you came over here for? ..to fuckin' argue with me over some dumbass shit. who even called you anyway?
CHASE: YOU FUCKIN' ASSHOLE. FUCK OFF!
BEAU: what?! shit. just leave if you're gonna be a bitch about stuff.
didn't noone ask you to come over. i got enough stuff goin' on as it is. and i don't need to hear your shit right now.
CHASE: you know what? you're right. fuck you. i don't need this. you always being secretive and shit. fuck you.
BEAU: ok then. that's fine. you know where the door is. ain't noone stoppin' you. i'm sorry.. but i just don't need this right now.

As Chase heads for the door she looks down and notices a syringe on the floor.

CHASE: what the fuck Beau? what is this?
BEAU: where did you find that?
CHASE: right here. on the floor.
BEAU: give it to me.
CHASE: no. what is it doin' on your floor?
CHASE: Beau.. no. tell me it isn't for what i think it's for.
BEAU: just give it to me and leave. serious.
CHASE: god Beau. that's why you've been actin' so weird lately. is that what all those marks on your arm is from.
how long have you been doin' this? where are you gettin' it from? and why the fuck are you doin' it?
BEAU: you don't know what you're talking about. just go.
CHASE: is it bad? does anyone else know about this?
BEAU: i don't have anything else to say to you. now can you just go. please.
CHASE: you need help. i can help you. let me help you.
BEAU: how in the fuck do you know what i need? all you know is what you see. nothin' more. nothin' less. i don't need your help. i'm aware of what's goin' on. now please. go.
CHASE: no. i'm not leaving. talk to me.
BEAU: no. there isn't anything to talk about. what you wanna hear, i'm not gonna say. fuck it. if you won't leave, then i will.
i don't have time for this. you say that you wanna help me, but then you press me. if you really wanted to help me, then you'd leave.
CHASE: why won't you talk to me?! this is serious. you could die.
BEAU: so fuckin' what? it's what i choose. and maybe.. maybe i don't want any help. or anyone involved in what's goin' on with me.
fuck! why can't you just let me be. now please. leave.



(to be continued..)
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Saturday, March 30th, 2002

Posted by:declinedsorrows.
Time:5:01 pm.
i am new here.
i have some mental issues..yeah, who doesn't
last july my friend josh OD (heroin) and well this july he's supposed to get a headstone...i'm still not over it.
i have a lot of things i am trying to figure out about myself..life.
today i almost ended my life-again..i'm pathetic.
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Thursday, March 28th, 2002

Subject:Complicated Simplicity
Posted by:ex_kittybutl858.
Time:7:20 am.
I ran so far
I waited so long
I thought about other people
I wanted to find a friend
someone who would understand
someone who would talk to me
someone who would be like me
not in every sense of the word
not as a duplicate
not as a mirror reflection
but something more than acquaintance
but maybe you would care if
but I would matter to you
If I wasn't there anymore
If I felt unhappy
If I wanted to you as my buddy
Only in dreams do real friends exist
Only in hope do people really give a shit
Only in death we are alone
That's why I search this complicated road.
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Saturday, March 16th, 2002

Subject:This Is Worth the Read!!!!!! Take the time and enjoy it!!!!!!
Posted by:aire80.
Time:8:05 pm.
Persona
A Play in One Act
by William Meeks

BEN, a nice guy
IRENE, BENs girlfriend
MELODY, BENs best friend

The play takes in a college town, like State College, PA or Athens, OH.
Scene 1
(There is a bare stage.)
BEN: (Offstage) It means Im at a turning point right now. Maybe if you werent so frigging self-centered you would know that.
(BEN and IRENE storm onstage from R. and approach center)
IRENE: What does my state of mind have to do with any of this? Why am I always. . .
BEN: Pause! (IRENE Freezes, BEN gives an aside) Shes so cute when shes angry. See how her face sort of elongates and her complexion gets a shade of red thats really sort of passionate? When I met her, she was always passionate. That is, until we started dating. After that, it became. . . Hold on, itll probably make more sense if I show you. Just give me a second, Ive always wanted to try this. (BEN waves his hands in front of IRENEs face, gets no response. He licks her face, no response. He grabs her ass and holds, no response.) Wow, I guess the action really has stopped. (IRENE awakes sharply.)
IRENE: (continuing previous speech.) --- the one who gets --- Why the hell are your hands there? Were fighting!
BEN: Oh, no reason -- um -- urm (Points.) Hey, look! Theres a unicorn! (IRENE instinctively looks as BEN runs off left.)
IRENE: Damn it, Ben! Come back! (She runs after him.)


Scene 2

(BENs apartment. BEN is occupied by business Up Right. There is a small table with an ADDRESS BOOK, NOVEL, and TELEPHONE. There are two chairs. There is a knock on the door.)
BEN: Whos knocking on my door?
MELODY: (Offstage.) Its your mystery date! Open the door and claim your prize, Benny!
BEN: Oh my god! Come in! (Melody Enters from Left, BEN hugs her, lifts her up and spins her.) I thought I told you to cut out the Benny stuff. Its Ben now, Im no kid.
MELODY: You know your never going to break me of that habit. Ive been calling you that since we were kids. You still let your mom call you Benny.
BEN: Fair enough. Where have you been hiding yourself?
MELODY: I was captured by an evil alien race and forced to explain the appeal of bubble-gum pop to the American people. After I told them, they abandoned all plans for conquest. (BEN laughs.) Ive just been busy with work and class, you know how it goes.
BEN: Ive really missed seeing you. Ive been down on me knees praying you would stop by for the awhile now.
MELODY: (Pause.) I... I... thank you. Ive missed you. . .
BEN: (Cutting her off.) I need to talk to you about something. Ive met the most amazing girl. (MELODY sits.) Shes pretty and she--- she--- she likes me a whole lot! She--- has a good music collection, discounting Fiona Apple, and she has really neat eyes.
MELODY: Is this going to be a repeat of the whole Meredith Debacle? Your my... best friend, but that doesnt mean Im willing to put down another five-hundred dollars to bail you out.
BEN: I dont think you heard me right: She likes me! (He sits.) Theres just a little weirdness. . . (Pulls out PEZ dispenser.) PEZ?
MELODY: No thanks. (He eats a PEZ, and puts dispenser away.) What do you mean?
BEN: I dont know, its like Irene, thats her name, its like Irene is the master of mixed signals. Shell make out with me into the wee hours, but she wont kiss me goodbye when I walk her to class. She gushes about our relationship when were hanging out with my friends, but when were around her friends, she acts like were not even together. She tells me she thinks Im brilliant, but she questions almost every assersition I make. Do you think she's afraid of commitment or something?
MELODY: Sweetie... Ben, are you sure this girl is right for you? Are you sure she even likes you? I mean, those signals aren't mixed, they're skewed.
BEN: Look, Melody, I appreciate your advice (Stands.) and I understand your concern, but I don't think you have a firm grasp on the details of the situation. She likes me-- She likes me! I've never had that happen before, and I'm a sophomore in college. Do you know what this feels like, to finally, after all the wishing and dreaming, to finally have someone to care about? Any problems we have can be worked out. I have someone to hold at night. (Sits.) Do you have any idea how that feels?
MELODY: No. (Pause.) So, your getting laid, huh? Congratulations.
BEN: Um... Yes, I am. It's amazing, isn't it? I get my first real kiss and two days later I reach the final plateau. (Pulls out PEZ dispenser, realizes it's empty.) Damn it. Just give me one second, okay?
(MELODY nods. BEN exits R. MELODY puts head in hands and elbows on table. She sees ADDRESS BOOK lying on table, opens it, and quickly copies down address. She finishes just as BEN enters and sits down.)
BEN: Sorry about that.
MELODY: That's alright. I know how you are about your PEZ.
BEN: (Laughs.) No, I mean I'm sorry about my little "Do you know..." rant back there. It was so sappy, I know it still has to be stuck in your head. Almost makes you want to throw up, doesn't it?
MELODY: Don't worry about it. Your heart's been ruptured, it's alright for you to gush a little.
BEN: (Chuckles.) Say, do you want to go to Mickey-D's and grab a Shamrock Shake with me? Shamrock shakes are the bomb.
MELODY: (Rising.) Um, that's ok. I have to go pick up my --- cheese of the month shipment?
BEN: UM--- Okay then. (BEN rises.) Listen, (He crosses to Melody, and gives her a hug.) anytime you want to hang out, give me a call. Just because I'm involved now doesn't mean I'm letting you go, Alright?
MELODY: Sure, see ya. (She exits.)
BEN: You always leave.






Scene 3
(There are two chairs and a table with a phone. IRENE sits Up Left writing in a notebook. A doorbell rings and IRENE answers the door.)
MELODY: Are you Irene?
IRENE: Yes, and who might you be?
MELODY: Im Melody Noitts. You might have heard of me before. Im a friend of Bens.
IRENE: Oh. Well please, come in. I have heard Ben speak of you. Youre his friend from back in Hocking Hills, arent you?
MELODY: Yes.
IRENE: So, did Ben send you over here? He said he wanted us to get to know each other. He thought it would be cool if his two best girls became friends.
MELODY: No, I came here of my own volition. Look, this isnt a social visit. I need to talk to you -- about Ben.
IRENE: Oh.
MELODY: We-- Thats me and Ben --were talking about you and Bens relationship today. He told me some of the details, and it got me a little worried. Now, I
IRENE: I dont know what he told you, but
MELODY: Hear me out. Let me say what I want--- what I need to say. When Im done, you can rebuttal any accusations or assumptions Ive made. Fair enough?
IRENE: Fair enough. (IRENE sits.)
MELODY: (Takes deep breath.) Okay. Ben and I have known each other since we were kids.
IRENE: I know, hes told me.
MELODY: (Crosses to IRENE.) Look, I dont know where you got the idea that you were the controlling force behind this conversation, but your not. (IRENE says nothing.) Thank you. Alright. Me, Ben, best friends since childhood. You know all this. When I was talking with Ben today, he made it appear as if the relationship exists strictly for your pleasure. Now, call me crazy, but I dont think you have his best interest at heart. (IRENE rises.) Jeez, give me a second here, okay? Please. (IRENE sits.) Thanks again. Bens my best friend, he has been for years. Weve been through just about everything together. Births, deaths, tests, vacations, puberty, orientation-- everything. Ive been around, and I know the signs. Your using him. Your trying to exert control over him. Do you think I want to see him go through years of self-doubt, infidelity, and abuse just to watch it all end when you tire of him acting as your whipping boy? I dont, and I can tell by the way your eyes are growing in ever-increasing anger that Im right on the money.
IRENE: (Coolly.) Whats your point?
MELODY: Whats my point? My point is that your trying to tear down my best friends spirit. Sure, he might be a little nave, but that doesnt give you the right to take advantage of him.
IRENE: Nave? Girl, hes a little more than nave. Look at his PEZ obsession. Look at his collection of Hardy Boys Case Files. He felt the need to ask me if he could kiss me on our third date, while I was massaging his favorite part! Thats not naivet, its ignorance.
MELODY: Are you serious? (IRENE nods.) Well, thats not the point. Hes a nice guy. Hes an abnormally nice guy, and its not right to manipulate him like this. I would never do that to him. You dont realize what you have. I dont know whether youve been jaded, or if your just that much of a bitch, but you would do well to realize just how good youve got it.
IRENE: Oh-- Ooh! I see whats going on here. My god, its so pathetic slash touching. How very Julia Roberts of you.
MELODY: Huh?
IRENE: Your best friend finds someone, and only then do you realize how you feel about him. The time for action is now! Its straight out of Hollywood. I was wondering why you had worked yourself into such a tizzy over this trivial crisis.
MELODY: (Crosses arms.) Hes my friend
IRENE: The strength of your convictions betrays your intentions.
MELODY: Okay, maybe I do have a thing for him, but that doesnt mean that Im wrong or youre right. All it means is that I have more than a friend to lose if you crush him. Give it up, will you? You could find someone else to manipulate in twelve and a half minutes.
IRENE: I can see why you like him. Your almost as much of a doe-eyed innocent as he is. You think you can come into my home and tell me how I should handle my affairs. Thats not the way it works, Wonder Girl. You can come here and give me some advice, women to women, but that doesnt mean that I have to listen to you.
MELODY: If your not going to listen to me, then I guess I have no choice. As soon as Im done at work, Im going over to Bens and telling him about this conversation. Im sure he wont be too eager to stay with you once he hears of your heated confession--- Sorry, I had a soap opera moment there.
IRENE: Go ahead and tell him. If he leaves, it will supposedly be cake to find a suitable replacement.
MELODY: Glad you hopeful. Dont be a stranger, and tell Jack Frost I said hi when you call home.
IRENE: Jack Frost? What the hell are you talking about?
MELODY: Nothing. See you around. (Under breath.) Stupid bitch. (She exits.)
(IRENE walks to phone and dials.)
IRENE: Ben, baby? --- Hey, its Irene.--- Yeah, Im ok, Ive just have a conversation with Melody.--- Well, would it be ok if I came over and we talked about it. I dont think you know her as well as you think --- Ben, Ben! Well talk about it when I get there, ok?--- Alright, I will--- I love you, too. Buh-bye. (She hangs up phone.) Him and that damn PEZ. (She exits.)


















Scene 4
(Set is the same as in Scene 2. We are at BENs place again. BEN is sitting at the table reading. IRENE bursts in and tosses big pack of PEZ on the table.)
IRENE: Theres your PEZ, although I cant see why your so concerned with a such a plain candy when our relationship is at stake.
BEN: Nice to see you too (He rises and fails to kiss her.) Whats all this, then? What happened between you and Melody that caused such a dramatic reaction?
IRENE: (Slowly throughout this speech she works herself into fake tears.) That little hussy burst into my home, Ben. She burst in, and she berated me. She said that she wanted you, and that if she couldnt have you, then neither could anyone else. She said to step aside or she wouldnt be responsible for what happened. She scared me, Ben. She was yelling and screaming and--- Oh, Ben! (She buries her face in his shoulder very dramatically.)
BEN: That Doesnt. sound like Melody Wait a second, she said she liked me?
IRENE: She threatened me, baby. If you care about me at all youll let her know that you cant be the friend of a well, an extortionist! If I mean anything to you, youll do it.
BEN: (Turns away from her.) Im not so sure that you do.
IRENE: What the hell is that supposed to mean?
BEN: (Turning on her.) It means Im at a turning point right now. Maybe if you werent so frigging self-centered you would know that.
IRENE: What does my state of mind have to do with any of this? Why am I always
BEN: Pause! (Aside) Look familiar? Now, Im presented with a very interesting quandary here. Right now I have a girlfriend. You dont know how long I waited for that to happen. For as long as I can remember, Ive been searching for some meaning. Something that would make sense of all of this madness that Im forced to deal with on a daily basis. Ive searched for that meaning for so long. Ive tried turning myself into a being of pure logic, just so the emptiness wouldnt effect me. But it seemed no matter what I did, I was left with a huge, unexplainable sense of worthlessness. No matter what I accomplished, not matter who I became, I couldnt find my meaning. Then, this girl walks into my life from out of nowhere. She showed more interest in me in one meeting than had been shown by an infinite number of girls I had encountered previously. Instantaneously, I felt the feelings that had plagued me my entire life start to melt away. I felt good about myself and my place in the world for the first time. All the fruitless searches I had made throughout my life were rendered null and void the night I shared coffee and conversation with this enigma, this unsolvable puzzle, this women who stands before me. I had validation. She made me believe I existed. Then, theres Melody. Shes my oldest and dearest friend. The status of our relationship has always been so static, it never occurred to me that there might be something more lying under the surface. I guess Ive always known I had feelings for her, but I never thought shed even consider me. Im a very plain-looking guy. Its not that girls dont like me, its just that they arent attracted to me. I exude intelligence, I exude kindness, I guess I just dont exude sexuality. Im not a good genetic specimen, when women look at me they dont see strong offspring, so they pass. Now, I pause at a crossroads. I can stay with Irene because its comfortable or I can go for what I really want, Melody. Irene has empowered me, shes given me the confidence to try for something better. But maybe Im just deluding myself. I might be idealizing this feeling of euphoria I get when Im around Irene. It might be a purely sexual thing. And I think I love Melody, but what if her feelings have just been brought on by my new found relationship? What if.Im driving myself crazy. Ah, what the hell. Action!
(Irene unfreezes.)
IRENE: the one who get blamed for our problems? Your getting off subject anyway. Are you going to talk to her about this, or are you going to throw this relationship (Cuddles up to him.) and me with it down the toilet?
BEN: Well, if your presenting an ultimatum I guess Im going to have choose-- Melody.
IRENE: What? Youyou asshole! Ive given you the best of me, and your going to give it all up for the mousy little bitch? Youyou cant. Your not strong enough! (She kisses him passionately.) Come on, Ben. You know you cant do any better than me!
BEN: If I have to live the rest of my life with nobody but my right hand, Ill have done better than you. Now thanks, that was fun, but I would appreciate it if you left.
IRENE: You cant do this to me! You dont have the balls!
BEN: I just did, and I do. Leave, now.
(IRENE huffs and storms out.)
(BEN stands there, proud of himself, then picks up the phone. MELODY appears on the opposite side of the stage, answering her CELL PHONE. They are in different rooms.)
MELODY: Hello?
BEN: Hey, Mel. Its Ben. Hows it going?
MELODY: Not too bad, just working on my case study of over qualification in fast food restaurants. In other words, Im at work. Hey, after Im done here, I need to talk to you about Irene.
BEN: Ive talked to her. She told me what was happened.
MELODY: What did she tell you?
BEN: Well, she told me you showed up and threatened her with physical violence if she didnt keep her distance from me. I figured that was a lie though.
MELODY: Yeah it was. I didnt say anything of the kind. Did she tell you I liked you too? (Lying.) I told her that, just to make my case seem more valid. I could tell from what you told me that she was only out to hurt you. I had your best interest at heart.
BEN: I know, thats why I broke up with her Thanks I guess thats why I was calling. To thank you for stepping up to bat for me.
MELODY: Its not a problem youre my best friend. We dont hang out nearly as much as we should. You want to go see a movie tonight or something?
BEN: Actually, I have plans.
MELODY: Oh--- well, sometime then, okay?
BEN: Sure. See ya.
MELODY: Uh-huh, bye.
(They hang up.)
BEN: (In Unison.) Aw, hell!!! (He throws the phone on the ground.)
MELODY: (In Unison.) Damn it to hell! (She breaks down crying.)

The End
Copyright 2002 William Meeks
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Wednesday, March 6th, 2002

Posted by:miss_plini.
Time:7:40 pm.
Mood:bouncy.
considering I just re-made my journal due to extreme boredom, I thought I would re-introduce myself to the 3,000 communities I'm a member of, as well as provide some I candy. I usually just post to my own journal, so to read about all the drama & debauchery, click here. If you add me to your list, I'll add you & all that......
I also have pictures up at Fotki & I'll probably be adding more soon. To see basically the story of my life so far, click over here. My personal favorite & the most memorable are the crackhead years , in a way, I'm still there, tee hee. If you like anything inparticular, sign the guestbook or leave a photo comment, only because I love them soooooo......
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Thursday, February 21st, 2002

Subject:An Introduction.........
Posted by:miss_plini.
Time:6:29 pm.
Mood: sick.
just thought I would introduce myself to each community I have joined so far.....
I am kind of new to LJ, I basically just post to my own journal, so to read about me & all my craziness (not toooo bad so far), move your mouse over here. Read an entry, leave a comment or two if you feel like it.
I also have pictures up at Fotki, so to see me & all my craziness, move your mouse over here. Sign my guestbook, leave a photo comment, or just look.......
Hope to hear from some of you soon!
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Saturday, January 26th, 2002

Subject:stolen from Fiercestcalm
Posted by:dmd2k.
Time:1:49 pm.
my character traits.

Open-minded: very
Arrogant: I pretend to be but I'm really not
Insecure: sometimes,hence the mock arrogance,it's a defense
Determined: depends
Musically talented: yeah,I'm a rock star
Interesting: I always semm to amaze people...
Casual: yeah
Friendly: yeah
Social: most of the time
Socially noticed: depends
Underestimated: oh yeah...
Unmotivated: sometimes..but not lately
Procrastinating: I'll answer that later...
Strong: physically:very emotionally:weak sometimes
Special: to some
Gifted: sort of
Smart: smarter than most think
Moody: yeah
Childish: not really
Independent: mostly
Up for a challenge: (pulls shirt over head) are you threatening me?!?
Hard working: yes
Organized: kinda
Healthy: very,I get sick only 'bout once a year
Emotionally stable: nope
Shy: a little bit,not much
Difficult: not at all
Lacking vocabulary skills: no,unless I'm tryin' to speak another language,then I mess it up a lot
Attractive: maybe...wanna picture?
Aware: of?
Bored easily: nope
Messy: as much as the next guy
Gullible: no
Responsible: lately
Obsessed: I can be sometimes,and it's VERY obsessed if I am
Angry: rarely
Sad: sometimes
Happy: most of the time
Convincing: ?
Careful: depends on the situation
Trusting: not at first
Contradicting: no
Careless: sometimes
Schizophrenic: not by technical definition
Ill: no
Talkative: if I have stuff to say
Curious: very
Indecisive: yes
Legal: what? of age to do most stuff if that's what you mean
Original: I think I am
Different: yeah
Unique: yeah
Ignored: I hope not..
Reliable: most times
Content: usually
Optimistic: yeah
Polite: yes
Deep thinker: yes
Self-disciplined: very
Sleepy: no
Lonely: alone mostly but not lonely
Mortal: I died beofre and I'm still here
Regretful: almost constantly
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Friday, January 18th, 2002

Subject:Help me out here....
Posted by:aire80.
Time:9:52 pm.
I am trying to figure out if I am right....
If you are a Gemini, would you consider yourself to be any of the following:
Eccentric, insane, psychotic, "different", methodical, or any other term used for a person who thinks differently then the majority of the world about themselves, situations they have been in, or they way they handle things
Also, if you aren't a Gemini's, but have friends that are Gemini's, do you feel they have any of the above mentioned characteristics?
Please don't take any of this as an insult, I don't mean any of these things in a bad way.
I just got thinking about a couple of the Gemini's that have been in my life and I want to see if other Gemini's are similar...
Please, please, humor the crazy girl!
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Tuesday, December 31st, 2002

Subject:New Years Resolutions.....
Posted by:aire80.
Time:11:09 am.
Mood: optimistic.
1) Fast for the first week of the new year for spiritual awareness.
2) Lose 10 pounds so I can look like Fiona Apple.
3) Do well in school and stay completly focused on my studies.
4) Finish the book I have been writing.
5) Perfect my conversation skills.
6) Stand up for myself more.
7) Get very very buff
8) Learn how to play an instrument.
9) Expand my vocabulary
10)Take time every day to learn something new.

These aren't hard resolutions so I think I'll be able to suceed in acomplishing them.

Happy New Years!!!!
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